Regrets

I wish I’d never told you,

shared that piece of my soul

for now I will always live with

remembering that you know.

I wish we’d never talked,

acknowledged that we cared

the blurry admissions leave me

gasping, choked and scared.

I wish we’d never spoken

for lingering in my mind

is my own agonizing truth

that all your words were lies.

I wish that I could tell you

all the self doubt you don’t see

I’m not good enough for you

because I’m not good enough for me